ryan radley // 25 // ze/hir or ve/ver // maker of art, lover of pigeons, trans of gender
when they had her kill her sister, they told her it was the revenge she deserved. in the end, it was their greatest mistake: it broke their perfect weapon.
anyway in stark contrast with that last piece: this
one of Aubrey’s bad ends involves dying by Nein’s hand and then NEIN’S story branches out two or three ways, one of them being that she is immediately struck by overwhelming guilt and the stark realisation that she’s committing herself to a dead-end life she never wanted and undergoes a SURGE-like event similar to one of Aubrey’s other bad ends and just goes absolutely feral
after this... i’m not sure what she’d do. her mindset in this state is just bloody revenge with no real plan so she might get taken out quickly. if she survived/escaped i don’t know where she’d go. given her Everything she would probably wind up a shadowrunner bc she completely lacks the social/life skills for... literally anything else
peace after the storm
i wanted to do a big illustration and i’ve had sth like this post-plot scene in my head for a while so! not entirely satisfied with how it turned out but it did show me i know how to use the perspective ruler in CSP finally and i spent so long on it i couldn’t Not finish it
I was thinking about Transitverse stuff earlier and when to drop fic that makes explicit some stuff that's been alluded to in Aubrey's past... I ended up with some lyrics I liked and spooled a whole song out of them
I've never played a ukulele before and my fingers are not used to this tiny tiny fretboard so I beefed some of these chords but i'm kind of obsessed with this song now and I want to record a more polished version
might fuck around and make a Content Blog
Two rounds of character design for Ic'leaa. I did the top three first and was gonna be done with it but by the time I finished those I was already seeing stuff I wanted to try again with so I did another set and i STILL feel like I need to do a third but I'm getting there
notes are stuff i like that i'm going to be pulling for the final round of designs. you can see the lower three have fewer variations than the top three and that'll be narrowed down even further in the last set but i need to draw something that is Not This for a bit
[ She felt weak, and afraid; and so she became something powerful, and frightening. ]
freedom of form in the matrix; curse or blessing
i've posted Noen's outfits on here before but since i got around to designing Eleng as well i thought i'd post them side by side
they're the main characters of Fallsong, an original comic i'm working on. Noen is charged with returning a god's magic harp to a remote monument out in the mountains and Eleng doesn't completely buy it but doesn't want Noen to go alone. words are exchanged and danger ensues
I got this nice art of Aubrey, Nein and June from Marty G on twitter!! they did a great job with them, big recommend, huge fan of the earrings they gave Nein in particular
Ryker-Still-?̸̴̶̛̕?҉͢?̷̷̧ family, Nickowicz family residence, 24th December 20XX
i was supposed to have a work games night tonight but only three of us showed up so we bounced after an hour and i spent my evening making my 2020 art summary instead! one of the few good things 2020 gave me was more leniency to work on art and i’m really pleased with all the stuff i made this year, especially managing to put out Seraphim Drive. excited for 2021 and all the stuff i want to make next year
Cyberpunk 2077 Refunds
Playstation removing Cyberpunk 2077 from their store and offering everyone who bought it a refund
THIS IS UN FUCKING REALghostmoor
god how do you fuck up this bad
i keep saying they should have just announced it with a 2022 release date in the first place because everyone would have accepted that at face value much better than "2020 release date except oops we had to push it back twice because we are flogging our devs to work to unrealistic deadlines and the game is so broken it can't even be called finished by the time we decide to release it to cash in on that holiday season money"
HEMISPHERECTOMY: a neurosurgical procedure to disconnect, disable or remove one hemisphere of the cerebrum
I just watched Ghost in the Shell (1995), Zenith made an offhand comment in a recent ep about half hir brain being metal, I have a longstanding fascination with the fact that hemispherectomies are a thing that we can do, and this image formed in my mind on Monday night and held me in a vice grip until I made it real
Nein in the Matrix vs Nein irl
HEAVEN SENT, HELL BENT
I made little profiles for everyone on my transitverse blog :--) I had fun leaning into the rough edges of the ink brush with these
apparently i hit 100+ followers at some point? nice
decided i am no longer using AO3 after i finish the last chapter of Eggshells there so i made a tumblr specifically to collate all my transitverse stuff :--) aubrey was supposed to be a one-off throwaway character for one fic but she stuck around and i've ended up with a whole NeoScum spinoff/AU with a bunch of characters and side stories and shit.......... tumblr is the most convenient way to keep all my art/comics/writing about them together in one place
Actually, some questions because I'm curious now.
So, in primary school (not college),
Keep in mind I'm approaching my late 20's as I answer these
-They're teaching kids to write emails now tf??? I learned to write a letter lol and even then I hardly remember that
-No lol from what I remember we just learned to type. We also played some online math games or something but that was the extent of it when I went to primary school
Cursive: Yes, expected to use it until high school when they let us write however we liked
Letter/email: Letters in primary school, emails maybe in high school but high school IT classes bored the shit out of me and I barely paid attention
Computer class: We did learn more than how to type in primary school but i could barely tell you WHAT. opened up a lot more in high school but, again, boring, could not tell you what i learnt in IT classes specifically that i didn't learn through other classes
i am DETERMINED!! to get Eggshells finished hopefully this month, and then... i’m actually going to start on some 100% down to the bone original content. exciting
Especially fond of this particular Seraphim Drive page so I wanted to post it solo too
I decided Nein would get her scars while she was still doing her first stint with LoA a little while ago but it was only when I was drawing this zine that I realised that there's no way it wouldn't take out her right eye too, so... she gets two ocular drones now instead of when she goes back to them later on and they replace them both
Inspired by @NeoScum: a zine about Legacy of Adam, the children God left in the shadows, and the insurmountable weight they must carry to Be Good.
I crawl out of my hole, as I do, periodically, to offer this: what I have been working on over the summer and most of the fall
I am forever hungry for more lore about Legacy of Adam, and in lieu of concrete facts, this is a collection of speculative experiences based on what we do know and what we can extrapolate from that. It was also a chance to dig into some character backstories a little bc I haven’t ever really gone this far back with these guys before.
You can download it for free right here. Enjoy, and please heed the content warnings on the itch.io page/intro page in the zine!!
i accidentally got into blaseball and have made a light rp side account for him so this is what i'm doing with my time in between working (still) on the neoscum zine i've been going at for like four months now