ryan, 24, uk. ve/ver/vis preferably or any neutral pronouns. i do art. i love oddworld and neoscum and i have too many original projects to list
What's up I haven't posted anything for like two months because I Have Depression Babey but I drew all of my Transitverse/Shadowrun/Scumverse/whatever characters for pride month
I also did a ton of other shit but let's start off with this
Time to face the unavoidable aftermath.
Eggshells is back!!! and I am really excited to get the last few batches of illustrations done because I'm really in the swing of things again
I pivoted halfway through these and decided to go for a more muted colour palette to suit the mood and I really like how it turned out. I get hyped up on vivid colours when I think about "strong" colour palettes a lot and forget that less saturated colours can be just as powerful
I think a lot about what happens when Aubrey is inevitably forced into a corner and has to confess her actual life story to Kaveh and Iloya
How clean it is depends on her circumstances and state of mind (there are a number of factors that could affect this…) but when it does happen she believes she’s at a point of no return where even acknowledging the surface-level details of what she’s been hiding is going to irreparably damage her life so she really just. goes for it. spills everything. What she was part of was so fucked up that the delivery doesn’t make a ton of difference
As for reactions… Iloya is very quick to come to the conclusion that the things she did during her time with LoA don’t bother them for all the obvious reasons but Kaveh takes longer. Kaveh is more of a law and order guy and Aubrey was like this scrappy kid he let live in his home for a month and a half within a month of being introduced to her and he has this very close dad/brother kind of relationship with her and it’s like. He can very very easily imagine the scope of destruction and death that these conflicts cause and it really fucks him up to know that Aubrey has killed hundreds of people
It puts so much else into context for him, too. When they get into physical combat on the job Aubrey can flip that switch and let her training take over and she is very fucking good at what she does, and there are a few times when she’s been forced to kill people, and she can be weird after that bc it does require her to flip some switches in her brain and she has to reconcile that with herself after the fact and now he knows why. and it’s so much worse than just gang violence.
He still loves her though. Because he does know who she is now and he’s seen all the trauma she’s been left with, and he knows she had absolutely no choice in the matter outside of just… dying. He can’t turn his back on the relationship he’s built with her over the last four years when she’s so obviously trying to build something good out of a life that other people kept running through the shredder for 17 years
So it takes him a while to process it and he’s kind of distant for a while but he comes around. I think it changes their relationship but in a good way. Aubrey doesn’t have to lie anymore and that includes no longer hiding knowledge and skills that she’s kept hush about because it would seem super sus for someone with her background to know about and I think that like. Rebuilding their relationship with Kaveh fully understanding who she is and what she knows and where she’s been puts them more on equal footing rather than the kind of mentor/kid thing they had going before.
Iloya is super grounded in the present throughout this whole thing. They get mad at Kaveh a number of times for his myopia wrt seeing Aubrey for who she is now rather than who she was then and I think he needs that kind of push. Iloya fully understands the gravity of Aubrey’s situation but they also fully understand that Aubrey could not possibly be more repentant for the whole thing and that despite the lies she is still very much the person she has been trying to be for the four years they’ve known her and she obviously wants to leave her past behind
I said I would do some intros for the characters I draw most atm so! Here they are
They're TECHNICALLY Shadowrun characters but they live in the NeoScum podcast's iteration of the shadowrun world and their GM's favourite thing about shadowrun is, to quote, "deviating from it", and I don't actually play these guys in an active game or anything so I don't really follow the rulebook too closely lmao. This is all "present day" info, AKA it more or less lines up with the canon NeoScum timeline right now
Some more info under the cut! History (what the hell is LoA, anyway) and how these guys relate to one another.
Preface: Legacy of Adam is a NeoScum-canon corporation which essentially raises kids to be human weapons. There's a LOT I could go into but the important info is: one of the player characters, Zenith, was raised by them (and when deemed unsuitable for further service due to PTSD and hir general mindset, mind-wiped and dumped into a civillian life), and they are absolutely performing drastic cybersurgery on children (obtained through as-yet-unknown means) and sending them out to fight wars.
SO this is where we start with Aubrey. She was raised in a different facility (Zenith was raised in Thailand) and made her escape when there was a transport incident on her way back from deployment. She and several others managed to fumble their way through the process of getting money and fake documents and split off, at which point Aubrey's life went to hell again. the TL;DR of it is she couldn't hack it as a shadowrunner and just about scraped by being traded off between gangs as an asset until someone who actually cared called in a favour and helped her get her foot in the door at the security company she still works for now
Kaveh and Iloya are pretty much Aubrey's best friends and have saved her ass numerous times. She took a bullet in her first month on the job and freaked at the prospect of being stuck in the medical wing for an extended period of time so Kaveh, being who he is, let her come and stay with him 'til she could comfortably look after herself again (I'm writing this series of events in Eggshells rn). They later end up being long-term roommates for a couple of years. Iloya was already friends with Kaveh before Aubrey was on the scene and kind of adopted Aubrey into their family. Aubrey goes home with them at Christmas WHICH I AM ALSO writing a fic about so I will let that speak for itself when I post it hopefully this coming week
And then we have Nein... Aubrey has always been very empathetic and protective but she really imprinted on a few other kids in particular while under LoA, and Nein was one of them. They're essentially sisters. She was one of the few who made it out along with Aubrey during the aforementioned transport incident but she was very young and found everything so overwhelming that she just turned herself back in to LoA. She's since come to resent Aubrey and they've used her experience as leverage to play her into their own hand, isolating her, outfitting her with a ton of custom cyberware/bioware and convincing her that a) she's literally better than anyone else and b) that she can only be that good while under their "employ".
Where this goes, ultimately.......... we will see. I have all kinds of possible outcomes slinging around in my head and I have a ~true ending~ in mind I guess but it comes down to what happens in NeoScum canon to some degree because Aubrey's whole deal in the first place is to be a counterpart to Zenith. I wanted them to bounce off one another, both of them having gone through something the same and yet vastly different at the same time. If Zenith dies Aubrey goes full murder mode and we get the ultimate bad end
Anyway! I love these guys a lot. there is also June (another ex-LoA operative/sibling) but I'm not entirely sure yet when or how he fits in so he'll get a card later, maybe with some other people
More fic drawings baybee
This one is all Original Content because I wrote an absolute ton of behind-the-scenes Aubrey content and it was all too good not to post so I did what I seem to do a lot these days and taped it all together into one big fic which is updating chapter-by-chapter here
Compiling some other multi-image junk rn (my least favourite task) but in the mean time here's some baby Aubreys, some less baby but still baby Aubreys and some Kaveh AKA dad-figure-later-turned-older-brother-figure-kinda from sth I wrote mostly as character exploration that became canon and that I will probably post one day once I accumulate enough bits and pieces in my notes to frankenstein together into a cohesive story. it's when Kaveh takes her shopping after her apartment building burns down (and she accidentally becomes his roommate for real)