ryan radley // 25 // ze/hir or ve/ver // maker of art, lover of pigeons, trans of gender
you've been so kind to me
though i don't know what i need
the rules of your world confuse me
and when you found me lost in autumn leaves
hey i'm alive just busy/working on long-term projects rather than short-term but here's art
i have a few things to post actually but i'll get to those later :^)
when they had her kill her sister, they told her it was the revenge she deserved. in the end, it was their greatest mistake: it broke their perfect weapon.
anyway in stark contrast with that last piece: this
one of Aubrey’s bad ends involves dying by Nein’s hand and then NEIN’S story branches out two or three ways, one of them being that she is immediately struck by overwhelming guilt and the stark realisation that she’s committing herself to a dead-end life she never wanted and undergoes a SURGE-like event similar to one of Aubrey’s other bad ends and just goes absolutely feral
after this... i’m not sure what she’d do. her mindset in this state is just bloody revenge with no real plan so she might get taken out quickly. if she survived/escaped i don’t know where she’d go. given her Everything she would probably wind up a shadowrunner bc she completely lacks the social/life skills for... literally anything else
peace after the storm
i wanted to do a big illustration and i’ve had sth like this post-plot scene in my head for a while so! not entirely satisfied with how it turned out but it did show me i know how to use the perspective ruler in CSP finally and i spent so long on it i couldn’t Not finish it
[ She felt weak, and afraid; and so she became something powerful, and frightening. ]
freedom of form in the matrix; curse or blessing
I got this nice art of Aubrey, Nein and June from Marty G on twitter!! they did a great job with them, big recommend, huge fan of the earrings they gave Nein in particular
Ryker-Still-?̸̴̶̛̕?҉͢?̷̷̧ family, Nickowicz family residence, 24th December 20XX
Nein in the Matrix vs Nein irl
I made little profiles for everyone on my transitverse blog :--) I had fun leaning into the rough edges of the ink brush with these
Especially fond of this particular Seraphim Drive page so I wanted to post it solo too
I decided Nein would get her scars while she was still doing her first stint with LoA a little while ago but it was only when I was drawing this zine that I realised that there's no way it wouldn't take out her right eye too, so... she gets two ocular drones now instead of when she goes back to them later on and they replace them both
Inspired by @NeoScum: a zine about Legacy of Adam, the children God left in the shadows, and the insurmountable weight they must carry to Be Good.
I crawl out of my hole, as I do, periodically, to offer this: what I have been working on over the summer and most of the fall
I am forever hungry for more lore about Legacy of Adam, and in lieu of concrete facts, this is a collection of speculative experiences based on what we do know and what we can extrapolate from that. It was also a chance to dig into some character backstories a little bc I haven’t ever really gone this far back with these guys before.
You can download it for free right here. Enjoy, and please heed the content warnings on the itch.io page/intro page in the zine!!
Everyone (including the GM) has been making NeoScum zines lately and I wanted to hop on the train so this is what I'm doing with my summer... not all of it is gonna be comics but they are gonna make up a substantial part of it. I'm having fun using some different brushes and colouring methods from my usual tools
What's up I haven't posted anything for like two months because I Have Depression Babey but I drew all of my Transitverse/Shadowrun/Scumverse/whatever characters for pride month
I also did a ton of other shit but let's start off with this
✨ FASHION ✨
I kinda gave up shading these halfway through bc I want to post it more than I want to finish it but I wanted to draw Nein in a bunch of different outfits. Post-LoA her creative side leads her into fashion and makeup and she gets REALLY into it and eventually ends up running a fashion blog
(WHTB are Who Hid the Body. They’re witch house/punk fusion and they’re her favourite band.)
THE DEVIL'S DAUGHTER
I had to do one of these cards for Nein too. I planned on doing this in between other things but.......... my brain wouldn't let me rest until I finished it so here she is. Very much into drawing her atm
I really wanted to draw on Tuesday/Wednesday but I’ve been really tired n dealing with a lot of pain so I needed something easy and fun... which is the perfect excuse to knock out a fashion lineup because I’ve wanted to do some designs for Legacy of Adam uniforms for a little while now anyway
Various iterations for various situations (plus #1′s downtime wear) as modelled by sweet baby Nein before her shit got wild
I said I would do some intros for the characters I draw most atm so! Here they are
They're TECHNICALLY Shadowrun characters but they live in the NeoScum podcast's iteration of the shadowrun world and their GM's favourite thing about shadowrun is, to quote, "deviating from it", and I don't actually play these guys in an active game or anything so I don't really follow the rulebook too closely lmao. This is all "present day" info, AKA it more or less lines up with the canon NeoScum timeline right now
Some more info under the cut! History (what the hell is LoA, anyway) and how these guys relate to one another.
Preface: Legacy of Adam is a NeoScum-canon corporation which essentially raises kids to be human weapons. There's a LOT I could go into but the important info is: one of the player characters, Zenith, was raised by them (and when deemed unsuitable for further service due to PTSD and hir general mindset, mind-wiped and dumped into a civillian life), and they are absolutely performing drastic cybersurgery on children (obtained through as-yet-unknown means) and sending them out to fight wars.
SO this is where we start with Aubrey. She was raised in a different facility (Zenith was raised in Thailand) and made her escape when there was a transport incident on her way back from deployment. She and several others managed to fumble their way through the process of getting money and fake documents and split off, at which point Aubrey's life went to hell again. the TL;DR of it is she couldn't hack it as a shadowrunner and just about scraped by being traded off between gangs as an asset until someone who actually cared called in a favour and helped her get her foot in the door at the security company she still works for now
Kaveh and Iloya are pretty much Aubrey's best friends and have saved her ass numerous times. She took a bullet in her first month on the job and freaked at the prospect of being stuck in the medical wing for an extended period of time so Kaveh, being who he is, let her come and stay with him 'til she could comfortably look after herself again (I'm writing this series of events in Eggshells rn). They later end up being long-term roommates for a couple of years. Iloya was already friends with Kaveh before Aubrey was on the scene and kind of adopted Aubrey into their family. Aubrey goes home with them at Christmas WHICH I AM ALSO writing a fic about so I will let that speak for itself when I post it hopefully this coming week
And then we have Nein... Aubrey has always been very empathetic and protective but she really imprinted on a few other kids in particular while under LoA, and Nein was one of them. They're essentially sisters. She was one of the few who made it out along with Aubrey during the aforementioned transport incident but she was very young and found everything so overwhelming that she just turned herself back in to LoA. She's since come to resent Aubrey and they've used her experience as leverage to play her into their own hand, isolating her, outfitting her with a ton of custom cyberware/bioware and convincing her that a) she's literally better than anyone else and b) that she can only be that good while under their "employ".
Where this goes, ultimately.......... we will see. I have all kinds of possible outcomes slinging around in my head and I have a ~true ending~ in mind I guess but it comes down to what happens in NeoScum canon to some degree because Aubrey's whole deal in the first place is to be a counterpart to Zenith. I wanted them to bounce off one another, both of them having gone through something the same and yet vastly different at the same time. If Zenith dies Aubrey goes full murder mode and we get the ultimate bad end
Anyway! I love these guys a lot. there is also June (another ex-LoA operative/sibling) but I'm not entirely sure yet when or how he fits in so he'll get a card later, maybe with some other people
1: Thinkin about making Nein an orc. I think I subconsciously based her appearance a little bit on Gobbet from SR:HK from the start so fuck it why not lean into it
2: June, my third ex-Legacy boy who I posted like once last summer and then never did anything with because I haven’t figured out how to slot him into the (loose) plot yet. Changed him to be an elf cuz I need to vary my metatypes more and idk if his hair is quite right yet (I re-drew it so many times) but I like this for now. He shows up some time after Nein and Aubrey are reunited and he would have to be the one to approach Aubrey bc she straight up would not recognise him at all. He’s the same age as her so they last saw each other when they were 17 and since then he’s been on T and had all of his C&C cyberware removed/replaced with more inconspicuous pieces so the only major giveaway is the eye scar
Nein ref! because I wanted to get all her implants and modifications down on paper with some bonus flavour text that I whipped up
I popped open Hero Lab while I was doing this to skim over the list of cyber/bioware in the books I have in there in case there was anything cool that appealed to me that I could add to her and y’all, Shadowrun is a real game you can play that lets you do some really fucking stupid bullshit to your character
AUBREY AND NEIN POST compiled from recent tweets and thoughts spawned from them
Chompers........... I decided it makes sense for Nein to have some teeth implants on top of everything else. idk if they're gonna stay gold I just wanted them to match her eyes here
Thinkin about.............. Her
I didn't plan on spending so much time on this but I wanted some nice art of Nein so :^)
She escaped the clutches of Legacy of Adam w/ Aubrey but turned herself back in to LoA and for her "loyalty" they... "rewarded" her. She was only twelve at the time and between the culture shock and being so young she couldn't handle trying to make it in normal society alone and LoA really doubled down on her once she was back in their hands, and used that to drill it into her that the outside world would only ever be hostile to her while they care for her and give her her true purpose in life. Despite their continued abusive practices they have her convinced she's their golden child, outfitted and trained to be better than any of their other operatives (spoiler: she's not and they have a bunch of others just like her), and she harbours a deep-seated hatred for Aubrey now as the one who orchestrated their initial escape, viewing her as having abandoned her to the streets.
(In the timeline where they reunite they work through it... a lot happens very fast and they have to make some very decisive life-or-death calls that leads to some rapid initial reconciliation. Things are still very rocky but there are some barriers that get broken down very quickly)