ryan radley // 25 // ze/hir or ve/ver // maker of art, lover of pigeons, trans of gender
you've been so kind to me
though i don't know what i need
the rules of your world confuse me
and when you found me lost in autumn leaves
hey i'm alive just busy/working on long-term projects rather than short-term but here's art
i have a few things to post actually but i'll get to those later :^)
when they had her kill her sister, they told her it was the revenge she deserved. in the end, it was their greatest mistake: it broke their perfect weapon.
anyway in stark contrast with that last piece: this
one of Aubrey’s bad ends involves dying by Nein’s hand and then NEIN’S story branches out two or three ways, one of them being that she is immediately struck by overwhelming guilt and the stark realisation that she’s committing herself to a dead-end life she never wanted and undergoes a SURGE-like event similar to one of Aubrey’s other bad ends and just goes absolutely feral
after this... i’m not sure what she’d do. her mindset in this state is just bloody revenge with no real plan so she might get taken out quickly. if she survived/escaped i don’t know where she’d go. given her Everything she would probably wind up a shadowrunner bc she completely lacks the social/life skills for... literally anything else
peace after the storm
i wanted to do a big illustration and i’ve had sth like this post-plot scene in my head for a while so! not entirely satisfied with how it turned out but it did show me i know how to use the perspective ruler in CSP finally and i spent so long on it i couldn’t Not finish it
[ She felt weak, and afraid; and so she became something powerful, and frightening. ]
freedom of form in the matrix; curse or blessing
Ryker-Still-?̸̴̶̛̕?҉͢?̷̷̧ family, Nickowicz family residence, 24th December 20XX
I made little profiles for everyone on my transitverse blog :--) I had fun leaning into the rough edges of the ink brush with these
Inspired by @NeoScum: a zine about Legacy of Adam, the children God left in the shadows, and the insurmountable weight they must carry to Be Good.
I crawl out of my hole, as I do, periodically, to offer this: what I have been working on over the summer and most of the fall
I am forever hungry for more lore about Legacy of Adam, and in lieu of concrete facts, this is a collection of speculative experiences based on what we do know and what we can extrapolate from that. It was also a chance to dig into some character backstories a little bc I haven’t ever really gone this far back with these guys before.
You can download it for free right here. Enjoy, and please heed the content warnings on the itch.io page/intro page in the zine!!
i made this character ages ago for a shadowrun game that never materialised butttt i like her design and i wanted to draw some polished art of her so here she is. idr her name and i cba finding her sheet but i think about her all the time
kids killing people and blowing things up // illustration page from my upcoming neoscum zine
THE BLEEDING HEART
It took a lot to get this one right but it was worth it 😤
Hey good news I finally finished that fic I've been working on since fucking DECEMBER. It ended up being way longer than I anticipated and I drew more for it than I planned but it turned out so well and there's a lot of good first-person Aubrey exposition in here that I haven't tapped into (publicly) before now
Part one of the illustrations, part two coming probably tomorrow
I said I would do some intros for the characters I draw most atm so! Here they are
They're TECHNICALLY Shadowrun characters but they live in the NeoScum podcast's iteration of the shadowrun world and their GM's favourite thing about shadowrun is, to quote, "deviating from it", and I don't actually play these guys in an active game or anything so I don't really follow the rulebook too closely lmao. This is all "present day" info, AKA it more or less lines up with the canon NeoScum timeline right now
Some more info under the cut! History (what the hell is LoA, anyway) and how these guys relate to one another.
Preface: Legacy of Adam is a NeoScum-canon corporation which essentially raises kids to be human weapons. There's a LOT I could go into but the important info is: one of the player characters, Zenith, was raised by them (and when deemed unsuitable for further service due to PTSD and hir general mindset, mind-wiped and dumped into a civillian life), and they are absolutely performing drastic cybersurgery on children (obtained through as-yet-unknown means) and sending them out to fight wars.
SO this is where we start with Aubrey. She was raised in a different facility (Zenith was raised in Thailand) and made her escape when there was a transport incident on her way back from deployment. She and several others managed to fumble their way through the process of getting money and fake documents and split off, at which point Aubrey's life went to hell again. the TL;DR of it is she couldn't hack it as a shadowrunner and just about scraped by being traded off between gangs as an asset until someone who actually cared called in a favour and helped her get her foot in the door at the security company she still works for now
Kaveh and Iloya are pretty much Aubrey's best friends and have saved her ass numerous times. She took a bullet in her first month on the job and freaked at the prospect of being stuck in the medical wing for an extended period of time so Kaveh, being who he is, let her come and stay with him 'til she could comfortably look after herself again (I'm writing this series of events in Eggshells rn). They later end up being long-term roommates for a couple of years. Iloya was already friends with Kaveh before Aubrey was on the scene and kind of adopted Aubrey into their family. Aubrey goes home with them at Christmas WHICH I AM ALSO writing a fic about so I will let that speak for itself when I post it hopefully this coming week
And then we have Nein... Aubrey has always been very empathetic and protective but she really imprinted on a few other kids in particular while under LoA, and Nein was one of them. They're essentially sisters. She was one of the few who made it out along with Aubrey during the aforementioned transport incident but she was very young and found everything so overwhelming that she just turned herself back in to LoA. She's since come to resent Aubrey and they've used her experience as leverage to play her into their own hand, isolating her, outfitting her with a ton of custom cyberware/bioware and convincing her that a) she's literally better than anyone else and b) that she can only be that good while under their "employ".
Where this goes, ultimately.......... we will see. I have all kinds of possible outcomes slinging around in my head and I have a ~true ending~ in mind I guess but it comes down to what happens in NeoScum canon to some degree because Aubrey's whole deal in the first place is to be a counterpart to Zenith. I wanted them to bounce off one another, both of them having gone through something the same and yet vastly different at the same time. If Zenith dies Aubrey goes full murder mode and we get the ultimate bad end
Anyway! I love these guys a lot. there is also June (another ex-LoA operative/sibling) but I'm not entirely sure yet when or how he fits in so he'll get a card later, maybe with some other people